Calling in Favors, The Flu, and Another U/s

White Flag:

Last Friday I was at a breaking point as I still had not heard from a nurse about my E2, P4 and U/S from earlier that week. We were on our way to Disney but I was a basket case so Josh made me call in a favor. My distant cousin is a nurse at CCRM.....so he called the main office and asked for her - and much to my surprise she answered! I am such a baby - I couldn't even explain the situation without crying. She went to talk to my main nurse and let me know she had my results and would call me later. At that moment my whole body relaxed.

The dreaded stomach bug:

Charlotte had the stomach bug (maybe flu) last week but we still made it to Disney. Then, Sunday morning I woke up in the hotel and felt TERRIBLE. A hangover times 20 - appears I caught the same bug. We came home immediately where I spent most of the day in bed. I was worried about what was going on in my ute so I took Monday off to continue to recover.

The need for an u/s:

So, I had another u/s today - and it was just what I needed heading into Thanksgiving. Both babies are measuring right on track and their heartbeats were about 170. I think it is time to face the music that I just may be really growing TWO babies in my body.

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving. I know many of you may be on different parts of your journey and this can be a hard time. When I was in a dark place this saying helped me appreciate each day even if I seemed to be waiting for something else.... There is no road to happiness....happiness is the road.

Holy Emotional

I think I have cried 10 times in less than 12 hours. It all started yesterday when I just got totally fed up with the lack of communication from the emerald city. I had my u/s on Monday and even though I had left multiple voicemails and sent many emails all I had gotten in return was half ass email responses. I started weaning vivelle patches and also started doing PIO every other day and I couldn't get any nurse to engage enough to tell me if this was okay and when I should get checked next. I freaked out. And they won't tell me when to have another ultrasound. Huh? I thought it would be 2 weeks like EVERYONE ELSE. Finally late last night the nurse called. They never got the u/s results. Great. She wanted to see the results to decide on the next u/s. Fair enough, I guess. I had to go today for bloodwork - which may or may not be sent to them today from LabCorp. Fabulous.

I am not only Holy Emotional - I am also Holy Happy. I am still in shock and disbelief. So thrilled that all of this has paid off and that our dream is coming true.

When I laid down on the table just after 1 on Monday my heart was beating so loudly I felt like everyone could hear it. The screen was pointed away from me so of course I watched the nurses face (not Josh's b/c he had no idea what he was looking at!) waiting for a sign. She pretty much immediately said - "Looks like there are 2 in there". She let me look at the screen for a second and then started all her measurements. She let us listen to both heartbeats (cue tear coming down my face)....they were both about 130. That is pretty much all she told us. But it was enough for me (at the time).

So next steps. No idea and it is driving me crazy. I did make my first Ob appt for the first week of December.

Thanks for all the well wishes :)

Quickie

Just a quick post to share the news......2 sacs and 2 heartbeats. They sounded beautiful - and as I listened a tear ran down my cheek.

I don't think anything is going to be "quick" anymore......

More details tonight!

24 hours

I am a nervous wreck!! Our first ultrasound is scheduled for tomorrow at 1pm and I have butterflies in my stomach. It has been a long week watching the days go by on my calendar - and now we are almost there. I just kept saying "I can do it" - feels corny but it got me through each day!

I was a basket case on Thursday and had a complete meltdown on my way to work (a combination of nerves, being tired, so sad for Mo, and my mother-in-law being in town). I had my E2 and P4 drawn that morning and the nurse called at almost 9pm EST. My estrogen was 2800 - this is up from 244 in one week! My P4 is up to 45. She said my body is kicking in and doing what it should be doing - I sure hope she is right. Sounds like I will be able to start weaning off the meds this week - yipeee!

I have been paying out of pocket for all these blood draws (for example, Thursday was $222). My insurance will only cover the hormone levels if the blood is "sent out" - which my local clinic won't do. So, my nurse said I can go to Quest or Labcorp from now on to save some money....and I am so relieved. Just wanted to share in case anyone else is experiencing this extra cost.

Remember my heart shirt from transfer day? Well, I am wearing it again today in desperate hope of seeing a beautiful heartbeat tomorrow. (again, can you say corny!)

Will update as soon as possible but may be later in the day due to work meetings.

The wait!

Since my 2nd beta I had a p4 and e2 draw.....and my e2 is STILL low. I am on 4 patches and 3 estrace a day. Seriously??? It was about 240 or 260 - can't remember. The nurse took it to the wizard to get his thoughts. Answer is to keep doing what I am doing. It created a bit of obsessing for a few days but eventually I had to let it go. I guess I just don't know what to do when I don't have something to google about IVF. I think my body has a hard time with the estrogen - b/c during a FET in April I was doing estrogen injections (delestrogen) and even then it took extra long to get my E2 up.

My ultrasound is scheduled for Monday! I have been counting down the days....waiting, hoping, praying we see a strong heartbeat. Will update then!