So, yesterday marks 10 weeks and I think we may have finally hit our "I'm going to make it" mark. I think it is a bit later than most, but these past 3 weeks have been not that great with D&C's and sickness that it took me a bit longer. I was able to take the babies for an hour walk and then do some weights after.....felt soo good to sweat and get my heart rate up. Makes me feel alive!
I have to say I am so proud that after 10 weeks (and all the other crap), I am still breastfeeding. I am starting to reap the benefits that people talk about - they gaze at me while nursing, hold my hand, and I just feel soo close with them. I love it.
I wish I could say the babies were sleeping for 6 or 7 hours straight....then I would be over the moon. But, they are sleeping about 5....so, I am not going to complain and know that with time things will get better.
More positives are that they are smiling a ton. It makes my heart melt. They also are able to "play" - kicking on their play mat's, or sitting in their bouncy seats and are happy doing it.
13 days til I go back to work - lots of anxiety.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Yes, another D&C
If you can believe it, I ended up having another D&C yesterday.
Two weeks after the first D&C I was still bleeding, so the dr had me get an u/s. And shocking to all still showed "stuff" in there. My options were another D&C, pills and waiting it out with potential of a D&C anyway.
Obviously, with a 2 year old and twins at home, I would need lots of help when having a D&C.....and my parents are headed out of town next week. So, based on this along with a gut feeling we went ahead with it. We decided on Wednesday and scheduled it for Friday. So, I spent Wed & Thur in a fog - pissed, sad, scared, depressed. I now only have 2 weeks left of maternity leave and this is what I have to deal with. Seriously??
Anyway, it's over - and it went much better than the first one (IV, no throwing up after) - but yes, they found tissue. We'll see what the pathology report says. And beforehand Dr and me had the talk about a possible hysterectomy......so, that was my first question when I came to. Let's hope it is all taken care of b/c I am scared to death that would be the only other option.
A year ago tomorrow these sweet twins were conceived in Lone Tree!!! Unbelievable!
Two weeks after the first D&C I was still bleeding, so the dr had me get an u/s. And shocking to all still showed "stuff" in there. My options were another D&C, pills and waiting it out with potential of a D&C anyway.
Obviously, with a 2 year old and twins at home, I would need lots of help when having a D&C.....and my parents are headed out of town next week. So, based on this along with a gut feeling we went ahead with it. We decided on Wednesday and scheduled it for Friday. So, I spent Wed & Thur in a fog - pissed, sad, scared, depressed. I now only have 2 weeks left of maternity leave and this is what I have to deal with. Seriously??
Anyway, it's over - and it went much better than the first one (IV, no throwing up after) - but yes, they found tissue. We'll see what the pathology report says. And beforehand Dr and me had the talk about a possible hysterectomy......so, that was my first question when I came to. Let's hope it is all taken care of b/c I am scared to death that would be the only other option.
A year ago tomorrow these sweet twins were conceived in Lone Tree!!! Unbelievable!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
2 months!
When people said the first few months are a blur - they are right! I have a post in the works of a week by week update.
For now - we had their 2 month update yesterday (and they are 9 weeks today). Best part of being 2 months old....the smiles :) And they watch Charlotte like a hawk! Worst thing - that I "think" they should be sleeping longer and although we have had some awesome nights (6 hours between feedings = 5 hours of straight sleep) we seem to always take 2 steps forward and one back.
Bennett is now 14 lbs 8 oz. Holy Cow!! Violet is 11 lbs - my little sweet princess. I am so happy they are thriving - and the doctor was pleased with their growth and milestones as well.
Thank goodness my mom came with me b/c we had Charlotte in tow b/c she has gone from strep to impetigo to fifths disease. It has been crazy - but she is much better now! We were all exhausted after 90 mins at the dr!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
It was Placenta
Yikes....kind of crazy. I guess it is usually that it didn't cause a problem until 7 weeks postpartum.
So, last week I was in the hospital and recovering and this week my 2 1/2 year old has a really wicked case of strep throat. Not really the ending to the maternity leave I had envisioned.
I have 3 weeks to figure out how to shrink my ass and belly so my work pants fit. hmmmmm.
So, last week I was in the hospital and recovering and this week my 2 1/2 year old has a really wicked case of strep throat. Not really the ending to the maternity leave I had envisioned.
I have 3 weeks to figure out how to shrink my ass and belly so my work pants fit. hmmmmm.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sub.Involusion = Hospital Stay = D&C
When I was at my very lowest wondering how I would even handle this "new" life I started bleeding.
Kind of graphic and long......
Like, can't get off the toilet bad. Scary bad. It was last Sunday night. I called the on-call dr about 30 mins after it started. We agreed that I should wait an hour and if it slowed to wait to go to the office in the morning. (reminder 7 weeks post partum). In the morning I was with the babies waiting for the dr office to open to call to make an appt - when it started again. Worse. My MIL was here so she helped pack me a hospital bag and get the babies down for nap - and I wrote out a schedule for her and told my DH to get home to take me to the dr. We made it there at 10am and it had slowed - then the dr did an internal exam and hell broke loose. Then, they did an u/s to look for retained placenta. I was a MESS. I could barely walk, I was dizzy, and I was scared. They didn't see anything of note in the u/s but sent me to the hospital. Guess what, the bleeding slowed again. I pumped in the car and we headed in. They gave me fluids and meth.ergine to help my uterus contract. No more bleeding -but they wanted me to stay overnight. Dr said probably my first heavy period. I doubted it b/c I am breastfeeding and with Charlotte I didn't get it for many months. They seriously didn't think it could be placenta b/c I had an c/s.
Side note: this happened to my sister with both her pregnancies and to my mom. I thought I got away with it b/c it didn't happen with Charlotte but with all this bleeding I knew it had to be "it".
So, the rest of Monday I didn't bleed I rested, rested and pumped alot and thought I was in the clear. Well, the next morning I was all ready for my "release" when I got up and it started happening!! Ugh!!! I was so happy my actual dr is on-call on Tuesday's so she came in to see me - decided to do another u/s and then based on that possibly a d&c. Yikes. Well, by 9:30 I was getting an u/s and then at 10 was told I was headed in for a d&c. I barely got a call out to my DH. My dr decided on this b/c my lining was unusually thick and b/c of my family history (although no one will admit this is hereditary). She thought it was something called a sub.involusion. So, when I got to the operating room my IV wasn't in, so they had to try like 4 times - it hurt like hell and I was crying like a baby. I didn't want to be there. Finally, finally it was in and I was OUT.
I woke up sick as a dog and in wicked pain. What a horrible thing to go through and all I could think is about how I have babies at home. All the women who have had to do that when having a miscarriage - that heartbreak would be too much to bear.
Turns out they did find tissue - sent to pathology to determine if it was placenta or not. Dr also used an u/s during the procedure and said it was a good thing she did otherwise they would have missed it and I would have been back. The thought is a nightmare.
They made me stay ANOTHER night. Holy cow....but it was a good thing as I was feeling horrible and would have never gotten the rest at home. My parents came when I came home and did everything for me while I slept a ton. It was so nice, yet made me feel like I am back to square 1. I have to take it easy until my follow-up appt on Thur.
So, that's my story. I am sharing b/c it is NOT normal to still be bleeding at 7 weeks post-partum.
So, is it hereditary or b/c I had twins? I wonder????
Babies are great - I need to dedicate a post to that b/c things got SO.MUCH.BETTER between 6 & 7 weeks. Weeks 4-6 are HARD.
Thanks for reading!!!
Kind of graphic and long......
Like, can't get off the toilet bad. Scary bad. It was last Sunday night. I called the on-call dr about 30 mins after it started. We agreed that I should wait an hour and if it slowed to wait to go to the office in the morning. (reminder 7 weeks post partum). In the morning I was with the babies waiting for the dr office to open to call to make an appt - when it started again. Worse. My MIL was here so she helped pack me a hospital bag and get the babies down for nap - and I wrote out a schedule for her and told my DH to get home to take me to the dr. We made it there at 10am and it had slowed - then the dr did an internal exam and hell broke loose. Then, they did an u/s to look for retained placenta. I was a MESS. I could barely walk, I was dizzy, and I was scared. They didn't see anything of note in the u/s but sent me to the hospital. Guess what, the bleeding slowed again. I pumped in the car and we headed in. They gave me fluids and meth.ergine to help my uterus contract. No more bleeding -but they wanted me to stay overnight. Dr said probably my first heavy period. I doubted it b/c I am breastfeeding and with Charlotte I didn't get it for many months. They seriously didn't think it could be placenta b/c I had an c/s.
Side note: this happened to my sister with both her pregnancies and to my mom. I thought I got away with it b/c it didn't happen with Charlotte but with all this bleeding I knew it had to be "it".
So, the rest of Monday I didn't bleed I rested, rested and pumped alot and thought I was in the clear. Well, the next morning I was all ready for my "release" when I got up and it started happening!! Ugh!!! I was so happy my actual dr is on-call on Tuesday's so she came in to see me - decided to do another u/s and then based on that possibly a d&c. Yikes. Well, by 9:30 I was getting an u/s and then at 10 was told I was headed in for a d&c. I barely got a call out to my DH. My dr decided on this b/c my lining was unusually thick and b/c of my family history (although no one will admit this is hereditary). She thought it was something called a sub.involusion. So, when I got to the operating room my IV wasn't in, so they had to try like 4 times - it hurt like hell and I was crying like a baby. I didn't want to be there. Finally, finally it was in and I was OUT.
I woke up sick as a dog and in wicked pain. What a horrible thing to go through and all I could think is about how I have babies at home. All the women who have had to do that when having a miscarriage - that heartbreak would be too much to bear.
Turns out they did find tissue - sent to pathology to determine if it was placenta or not. Dr also used an u/s during the procedure and said it was a good thing she did otherwise they would have missed it and I would have been back. The thought is a nightmare.
They made me stay ANOTHER night. Holy cow....but it was a good thing as I was feeling horrible and would have never gotten the rest at home. My parents came when I came home and did everything for me while I slept a ton. It was so nice, yet made me feel like I am back to square 1. I have to take it easy until my follow-up appt on Thur.
So, that's my story. I am sharing b/c it is NOT normal to still be bleeding at 7 weeks post-partum.
So, is it hereditary or b/c I had twins? I wonder????
Babies are great - I need to dedicate a post to that b/c things got SO.MUCH.BETTER between 6 & 7 weeks. Weeks 4-6 are HARD.
Thanks for reading!!!
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